Love

I am a very blessed girl.  I'm realizing more and more, how much love I have in my life.  Not only do I know that I am loved, but the love I feel for others brings me great happiness as well.  With the arrival of Lily, I feel like my capacity to love has increased so much.  Before she was here, I was in love with the black and white silhouette of the ultrasound pics and the feeling of tiny baby kicks in my stomach.  But now that she's here, there is so much more to love.  I love her hair!  I love her cute, perfect little toes.  I love the rare and fleeting, yet heart-melting smiles that she gives us.  And the surprising part is how much I love this little person who wakes me up every night, messes the diaper I just put on, and keeps me from having time to do much of anything but stare at her.  It's amazing to feel the love that I have in my heart as Lily's mom.  It's incredible.

Something else that was a bit surprising to me was how my love for David has grown as well.  I didn't think I could love him more...and then I saw him love my daughter.  Wow.  It is a special thing to watch a husband become a father.  I know we were both nervous to become parents, but sometimes I feel like parenting has come more naturally to David than it has to me.

She is like his new favorite toy.  If he's been gone for a while, the first thing he wants to do when he comes home is hold his "little sweetie".  He loves to just watch her.  He loves to show her off.  But I think his favorite thing to do is give her kisses.  Not the soft sweet kind...big ol' kisses that take advantage of her adorably chunky cheeks!  It's priceless.  He has been so helpful as I've been healing and finding my new normal.  I'm so blessed to have him.  And let me tell ya what!...I've found recently that there is nothing more attractive than a man who can hold and soothe a fussy baby while also switching the laundry from the washer to the dryer. ;)  Boy am I lucky.